Category: My Journal

Meet my son Sam.579781_10150843431604823_752499822_9903108_1388614689_nToday was a very tough day for this mom that only wants good things for her son.  I have worked hard to get where I am which may not be much but it’s been a long journey to becoming an educated Latina originally from Tijuana, Baja California, Mexico.  I come from a very modest upbringing.  Raised in a Mexican household with 6 siblings and not much in the way of monetary things.  We had one television that we all fought over.  Excellent Mexican cooking by my mother Josefa and a very hard working and talented dad Elias.  I have worked the onion fields of California (green onions) Grapes of Cucamonga, California, white onions of Ontario, California.  This made me or molded me into who I am today.  My parents never wanted me to work in the fields, but I was never one to sit around and do nothing.  I enjoyed my time away from home, but being in the scorching hot sun and getting up at 4am on the weekends was not for kids to experience.  California growers are ruthless, they don’t care if you’re an adult or a child as long as their crops get picked they pay!

I have had many other tough jobs, but never a wimp about doing the tough work.  One of the greatest things I took away from my working in California fields is that I never wanted to work outdoors and I always knew I wanted to work in an air conditioned environment.  I feel for my people that continue to do that back breaking work, but it also makes me want to work hard for them, for their children and for my son.

My son has had a few jobs here and there, but today when I saw him working at our local car wash something made my heart jump to my throat.  When I left the car wash I could hardly breathe, I cried the whole way home.  This is not how I envisioned my son.  This is tough work, he is a driver there, but it was still tough seeing him in this establishment that hires a lot of Mexican men and women to do the cleaning work.  I spoke with an older Mexican man that brought my car out, he spoke to me in Spanish, he was very nice.  He could easily be my uncle or dad for that matter.  I told him my son Sam works there, he seemed perplexed.  He said there is only one Sam and I think he’s a gavacho – white!  I said if he’s 6-3 that’s my son, he’s Mexican/German.  The man said that Sam had told him in Spanish that his mom is Mexican and from Tijuana lol.  I guess it’s the right Sam :).  This man said that he’s had many conversations in Spanish with my son who I sent to a  Spanish immersion school and can read, write, and speak Spanish.  He said that he has told Sam to go to college and study so that he will not have to struggle in life as our people have.  Sam has replied that he is going to college when he finishes high school.

This man made my day, I love that Sam is interacting with Paizas.  People of our culture, that he is having those experiences.  That he sees how tough life can be for those who do not have the language or the education.  I hope this helps mold him and appreciate our people just in case he hasn’t up to this point.  Sam has grown up around a lot of kids that come from affluent backgrounds.  Sam’s mom has not been so fortunate 😦

Today was tough, but after speaking with a close friend and hearing her stories handed down from her father about our kids needing to have those experiences, needing to be carpet cleaners and car washers along side our people who’ve struggled so that someday they will appreciate their people, where we come from and the work they may someday do is priceless.

I know that Sam I Am will do great things, I hope he can someday be a great leader.

I’m so glad I have this blog, a place to put my story and reflect on how fortunate I have been and how lucky we are to live in America as my dad put it “The land of opportunity”.

Marina Castillo ❤



christmasFeliz Navidad – Merry Christmas

I started a blog on Friday Dec. 14th. 2012 about Angels “Angels in the Midst” I wasn’t sure what story to start with. Then I heard about the l20 little angels god called home :((.

This is definitely not the way I wanted to start my Angels in the Midst blog :((

On Saturday, the Connecticut State Police released a list of the names of the 26 victims who were shot and killed at a Connecticut elementary school.

The victims are 12 girls, eight boys and six adult women. The victims, police said, were shot up close, multiple times.

The following is a list (as released by police) of the victims in Friday’s shooting spree on the campus of Sandy Hook Elementary School in Newtown.

Charlotte Bacon, 2/22/06, female
Daniel Barden, 9/25/05, male
Rachel Davino, 7/17/83, female.
Olivia Engel, 7/18/06, female
Josephine Gay, 12/11/05, female
Ana M. Marquez-Greene, 04/04/06, female
Dylan Hockley, 3/8/06, male
Dawn Hochsprung, 06/28/65, female
Madeleine F. Hsu, 7/10/06, female
Catherine V. Hubbard, 6/08/06, female
Chase Kowalski, 10/31/05, male
Jesse Lewis, 6/30/06, male
James Mattioli , 3/22/06, male
Grace McDonnell, 12/04/05, female
Anne Marie Murphy, 07/25/60, female
Emilie Parker, 5/12/06, female
Jack Pinto, 5/06/06, male
Noah Pozner, 11/20/06, male
Caroline Previdi, 9/07/06, female
Jessica Rekos, 5/10/06, female
Avielle Richman, 10/17/06, female
Lauren Rousseau, 6/1982, female (full date of birth not specified)
Mary Sherlach, 2/11/56, female
Victoria Soto, 11/04/85, female
Benjamin Wheeler, 9/12/06, male
Allison N. Wyatt, 7/03/06, female

Police knew the names of the victims Friday, but officials said they were pending positive identification by the state medical examiner’s office.

The suspected shooter, 20-year-old Adam Lanza of Newtown, died Friday morning from a gunshot wound. Authorities said they believe his wound was self-inflicted.

Lanza forced his way into the school around 9:40 a.m. Friday, police said, about 30 minutes after the school day began. The first 911 call was received by police one minute later.

Investigators said the gunman fired his weapon at least 100 times.

Authorities also said they believe Lanza killed his mother, Nancy Lanza. She was found shot to death in her Newtown home Friday.

12-12-12 Virgen De Guadalupe

Celebrating El Dia de la virgen de guadalupe – If you are Mexican or Latino chances are you know about the miracles the Virgin Mary is known for.

Listening to all the stories on television of Jenni’s life makes me so sad.  What an incredibly difficult life she endured only to have it end in more tragedy.  What a beautiful spirit and human being she was.  She had such a talent and energy or presence about her.  I have never really listened to her music except when I’m in California and my sister picks me up in at the LA Airport with her Jenni Rivera music playing and wherever we went she usually had her music playing.

I am sad watching the news hearing that an 80 year old and a 20 year old were flying her plane, it was an accident waiting to happen.  It makes me mad, makes me want to do something, but of course nothing I can do other than pray for her children and her family.  She was so loved by her siblings and relatives.  I would love to have known her and talk to her about her strength and her powerhouse attitude.  She kind of reminds me of me in many ways except in the ability to sing of course lol.

Maybe someday I will be able to speak to her kids about Jenni’s spirit and her strength.  I send them strength to get through this to help them communicate with her.  amy

Projecting Love

There are so many things in our daily lives that keep us down, out, stressed, unfocused, outta touch, unfriendly, unloving, unconscious! I am working in projecting love to receive love and light from my surroundings. I’m a firm believer in projecting love, even when you really don’t want to it will make a huge difference in yourself and those around you. When I practice projecting love a notice a shift in my son, my husband and in myself. Trust me in this one and try it. You can thank me later. Love and light to all I encounter, know, love, dislike, and have yet to meet. Amor to everyone!!!!

Projecting Love

Project Love and Light and you will glow even stronger than ever!!!!!!!

Everyone has the ability to become stronger and more connected spiritually through prayer and meditation.  We all are born with the ability to connect with spirits, we lose that connection when we are told we really don’t hear anything or see anything.  So we stop believing.  Depending on your upbringing you may even be told its not the work of god.  However, guess who god uses to help him here on earth, correct, you, and me!!!  Some of us are stronger in these ways than others.  Some people have a very strong presence around people, you know who you are.  I was always told that I was very lucky for many reasons and indeed I was, always and I mean always won contests I entered, I always get the first parking spot my friends are always blown away by that by the way.

I have a strong sense of who I am.  The older I get the stronger I become in the spiritual ability ways.  In a rush to enter this in WordPress before I have to get ready for work, sorry if grammar is off will fix later lol.

I love people, I love to teach, I love to see kids faces light up and can tell a client why they are here to see me, in a therapy session.  How am I able to do this, it’s a gift, not sure why I was picked to have such a strong presence and to have the ability to teach and help others as well as the ability to draw without taking classes or take photos without having stepped foot in a photography class.  God gave me these gifts and its up to me to figure out how to use them for the greater good.  I pray about it constantly because I still am not sure how I can put together all my talents for a greater good.  Maybe National Geographic will call and I can travel to Mexico take photos of my peeps who struggle in the villages to make ends meet hence why they come to America.  People in America often don’t have a clue why Mexicanos come here maybe I can show then through National Geographic.  When you dream, dream big right!!!!!!!  Love and Light to all of you.  Love is a powerful thing!!!!!!!!!!!!! ❤

People enter our lives to help us grow, good, bad, or otherwise, that is why they enter our lives. Sometimes it doesn’t make sense, but if you have faith eventually it all makes sense. It’s all part of our Journey into awareness and self actualization. If we never look outside of ourselves we always wonder what our purpose on this earth is.ImageSoul, Angels, Angelitos, Spirits, Spiritual, Healing, healers, santeria, saints, prayer, praying, god, Purpose, curanderismo, curandero, curandera, mind, body, alma, dios, god, jesus,wholistic, guides.